I remember vividly one time last year when Colin and I went apple picking. It was an extra special outing for me because I was convinced this was where and when Colin would propose! I knew it was coming sometime soon, but the anticipation was killing me. Every single outing, date, and trip to my favorite places convinced me that This. Was. It! It had to be! There was one week in particular where Colin seemed extra excited and just in a suspiciously fantastic mood; He was literally bouncing up and down. I thought, It’s coming! This week! So, every night that week when we saw each other I prepped: I wore my cutest outfits, always made sure my hair and makeup looked picture-ready, and grinned at myself constantly in the mirror—now I was bouncing up and down. Overall I was a ball of anticipation and nervousness. Sadly (but now humorously), after every date that did not end in the perfect proposal that he was hinting at for months, I felt crushed and defeated. It was quite the emotional roller coaster! Finally, I let him know how I was feeling, and he thankfully gave me a timeline: it would be in about 4-6 weeks. This calmed me. I could relax—for a little while at least…
He didn’t end up proposing at the apple orchard, but he did propose in Laguna Beach where we had our first date. He wrote me a children’s book. Yes, seriously. And it was the MOST romantic proposal ever! It was so worth the wait.
It’s funny, sometimes we have this sense of urgency (mine is usually in overdrive) to get things done and move forward as quickly as possible—I call it being “efficient.” This is what I was thinking as Colin was writing and re-writing the book: he has to hurry so we can start planning the wedding! We are losing out on precious time! But, we really had—and still have—all the time in the world. Nothing has to look any which way other than how it actually does look, for you. And as the very cliché but very apt saying goes, “It’s not about the destination; it’s about the journey.” Our journey together has been so amazingly beautiful so far. It doesn’t matter where we end up, only that we are together and able to enjoy and savor every sweet moment—because they are infinite.
Warm Apple Compote
Serves 2 (maybe more if you like to share…)
2 pink lady apples, peeled and sliced
3 tablespoons coconut oil (I used refined from Whole Foods)
½ teaspoon cinnamon
5 shakes nutmeg
½ teaspoon almond extract
½ teaspoon vanilla extract
¼ cup brown sugar
1 tablespoon chia seeds
Warm the coconut oil in a medium-large sauce pan, and add all the ingredients and stir, adding the apples last. Cook on medium-low for about 20 minutes.